Finding Confidence in Writing Again: A Personal Reflection

Start writing… that’s what was on my screen just before I typed this sentence. So ok.

I think what people like about my blog is that it’s relatable. We’re all just trying our best to raise good people who want to do something with their lives that is meaningful.

I think I have gone through times where I felt very lacking so I didn’t know what to share.

I am writing despite those feelings because I figure feeling lost but trying to find the best way to do something is better than being sure of only one way and following it blindly. Right?

Start writing… Someone recently asked me why I stopped. I really don’t know. What I do know is that once I stopped I lost confidence. Then with the loss of confidence came the questioning. Is what I was writing good enough? How do I make it better. Does anyone still read this?

Now I have come full circle to “I think what people like about my blog is that it’s relatable”.

I tried to not check when I last posted continuously but it’s been years. I feel like I am a writer who’s not writing. So I will ”relatebly” think much less about what I am writing and just write when I feel the fancy. You were here for it when I was doing that anyway so if it’s not broke don’t fix it.

I also have to admit that this post is a continuation of a draft I wrote a year ago. In that draft this is the part I am supposed to write the highlights of what happened in my life the last three years. I am skipping that part seeing as I am still processing what happened 6 months ago.

6 months ago my father died. I won’t say I lost my father because I find that sentence ridiculous. I didn’t lose him I know exactly where he is.

My father died and I find I have to say that (sometimes a few times a day) because of its enormity. It’s as though my world has been colored a strange shade and I’ve become used to it so every now and then I forget it happened. And I look around sometimes and go “oh yes, it’s blue here now..”.

That’s all I want to say about that right now. But to everyone I have come across who has lost a parent I want to say I am sorry I truly had no idea that it was this much and all the time.

Start writing… I started this blog is 2010. Almost 15 years ago and it’s crazy to look back on it all. I am grateful I have these stories saved and I want to keep writing as much for myself as for you all. That’s how it started and that’s how I hope it will continue and along the way I hope you feel the urge to join in!